Come Hither.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
When moonlight falls upon your skin.
Most people think things are not real unless they are spoken,
that it's the uttering of something, not the thinking of it, that legitimizes it.
I suppose this is why people always want other people to say "I love you."
I think just the opposite - that thoughts are realest when thought,
that expressing them distorts or dilutes them.
And grief still feels like fear. Perhaps more strictly, like suspense.
Or like waiting, just hanging around waiting for something to happen.
It doesn't seem worth starting anything. I can't settle down.
I yawn, I fidget, I drink too much.
That's the problem with drinking, I thought, as I poured myself a drink.
If something bad happens, you drink in an attempt to forget.
If something good happens, you drink in order to celebrate.
And if nothing happens, you drink to make something happen.
I take my hangovers as consequences, not as punishments.
Now I'm tired. But there's some things I shouldn't do.
Like falling into the abyss of love.
I spent my life learning to feel less.
Every day I felt less.
Is that growing old?
Or is it something worse?
Because you cannot protect yourself from sadness,
without protecting yourself from happiness.
Wedding Dress; J Reyez. & Tommy C
(Verse 1 – Tommy C)
Never should've let you go
Never found myself at home
Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door
You were like my beating heart
That I, I can't control
Even though we've grown apart
My brain can't seem to let you go
Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night
We use to mess around
Laugh and play, fuss and fight
(Pre-Chorus)
I guess it's too late, I'm dancing this dance alone
This chapter's done, the story goes on
(Chorus)
Baby, can't believe that you are not with me
'cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free
But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you
In that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
(Verse 2)
Snappin' out this misery
Depression, this ain't me
But I always turn around
180 degrees
You got control of me
And I, I can't explain
Somebody call 911 Emergency
Before I go insane
Since you've moved on
You took a piece of me, give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, heart attack
(Pre-Chorus)
I guess it's too late, I'm dancing this dance alone
This chapter's done, the story goes on
(Chorus)
Baby, can't believe that you are not with me
'cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free
But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you
In that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
(Verse 3 – J.Reyez)
And I see you with your man and it's hard to understand
If we belong, if I did you wrong, where we even began
We would always fuss and fight, and it seems nothing was right
But I loved you girl, and you were my world, but you'd never trust this guy
'cause the things I do when I'm on the stage, they say I'm a superstar
You couldn't understand all the female fans, and then we grew apart
And I just don't get when you're acting like some other person
But I try my best to hold on at the times when it ain't working
And everytime that you say it's over, it breaks my heart and I don't know why
'cause you've done it a lot of times in the past but I get back up and try
You said we could work it out, how could you hurt me now
And you moved on to the next, I'm left with an imperfect smile
(Chorus)
But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you
In that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress.
(Reminds me of Blue October's Congratulations;
equally heart-wrenching, so to speak.)
After all, to you, my problems and anxiety can be reduced to a chemical imbalance,
or some kind of misfiring synapses.
But when your foot falls down through the air, you said there was a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and read ahead the steps to take.
And the fall, the dark surprise, it only reminds you of the way I thought about things - so candid ... so morbid.
You said you can never love a morbid person.
You said nobody can.
You said nobody will.
Still I said, "I will never hate you."
And I said, "I will never leave you."
So promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you,
like you did to me.
Most people think things are not real unless they are spoken,
that it's the uttering of something, not the thinking of it, that legitimizes it.
I suppose this is why people always want other people to say "I love you."
I think just the opposite - that thoughts are realest when thought,
that expressing them distorts or dilutes them.
And grief still feels like fear. Perhaps more strictly, like suspense.
Or like waiting, just hanging around waiting for something to happen.
It doesn't seem worth starting anything. I can't settle down.
I yawn, I fidget, I drink too much.
That's the problem with drinking, I thought, as I poured myself a drink.
If something bad happens, you drink in an attempt to forget.
If something good happens, you drink in order to celebrate.
And if nothing happens, you drink to make something happen.
I take my hangovers as consequences, not as punishments.
Now I'm tired. But there's some things I shouldn't do.
Like falling into the abyss of love.
I spent my life learning to feel less.
Every day I felt less.
Is that growing old?
Or is it something worse?
Because you cannot protect yourself from sadness,
without protecting yourself from happiness.
Wedding Dress; J Reyez. & Tommy C
(Verse 1 – Tommy C)
Never should've let you go
Never found myself at home
Ever since that day that you walked
Right out the door
You were like my beating heart
That I, I can't control
Even though we've grown apart
My brain can't seem to let you go
Thinking back to the old times
When you kept me up late at night
We use to mess around
Laugh and play, fuss and fight
(Pre-Chorus)
I guess it's too late, I'm dancing this dance alone
This chapter's done, the story goes on
(Chorus)
Baby, can't believe that you are not with me
'cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free
But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you
In that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
(Verse 2)
Snappin' out this misery
Depression, this ain't me
But I always turn around
180 degrees
You got control of me
And I, I can't explain
Somebody call 911 Emergency
Before I go insane
Since you've moved on
You took a piece of me, give it back
So much pain in my chest
Blacking out, heart attack
(Pre-Chorus)
I guess it's too late, I'm dancing this dance alone
This chapter's done, the story goes on
(Chorus)
Baby, can't believe that you are not with me
'cause you should be my lady
All I want is to set your heart free
But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you
In that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
(Verse 3 – J.Reyez)
And I see you with your man and it's hard to understand
If we belong, if I did you wrong, where we even began
We would always fuss and fight, and it seems nothing was right
But I loved you girl, and you were my world, but you'd never trust this guy
'cause the things I do when I'm on the stage, they say I'm a superstar
You couldn't understand all the female fans, and then we grew apart
And I just don't get when you're acting like some other person
But I try my best to hold on at the times when it ain't working
And everytime that you say it's over, it breaks my heart and I don't know why
'cause you've done it a lot of times in the past but I get back up and try
You said we could work it out, how could you hurt me now
And you moved on to the next, I'm left with an imperfect smile
(Chorus)
But if you believe that you belong with him
Promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you
Remember, I will always be here for you
Even if it kills me to see you
In that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress
See you in that wedding dress
Oh, see you in that wedding dress.
(Reminds me of Blue October's Congratulations;
equally heart-wrenching, so to speak.)
After all, to you, my problems and anxiety can be reduced to a chemical imbalance,
or some kind of misfiring synapses.
But when your foot falls down through the air, you said there was a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and read ahead the steps to take.
And the fall, the dark surprise, it only reminds you of the way I thought about things - so candid ... so morbid.
You said you can never love a morbid person.
You said nobody can.
You said nobody will.
Still I said, "I will never hate you."
And I said, "I will never leave you."
So promise me, you won't let anyone hurt you,
like you did to me.
posted by Lynette # 11:04:00 PM 
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